Almost Lost H.E.R.

From the Unsigned Hype column of The Source magazine to the cover of People Magazine...living 'the life' can take you so far...

Do you think that's where everyone wants to be?? In the limelight. On the scene. Bombarded by paparazzi.

I don't think that's everyone's goal. I think every person has their own spark that makes them unique, but I don't think everyone wants the OD praise and attention. But yet again, it's hard to avoid it. One can easily get caught up in mainstream culture and begin to blend in with the others.

But what happens to orginality? Does that need to be sacrificed to be in the 'in-crowd'?

Personally, I know what has 'changed' me. One event of my life has taken me from point A to B.

I have no regrets.

But I'm starting to see what I am becoming...I can break down how I feel by using some Jay-Z lyrics...

'I heard motherf*ckers saying they made [me]
Made [me] say, "OK so, make another [me]"
N*ggaz wasn't playing they day role
So we parted ways like Ben and J-Lo
I should've been did it but I been in a daze though
I put friends over business end of the day though
But when friends, business interests as they go
Ain't nothing left to say though
I guess we forgot what we came for
Should've stayed in food and beverage
Too much flossing
Too much Sam Rothstein
I ain't a b*tch but I gotta divorce them
[Ash] have to get the shallow sh*t up off [her]
And I ain't even want to be famous
N*ggaz is brainless to unnecessarily go through these changes
And I ain't even know how it came to this
Except that fame is
The worst drug known to man
It's stronger than, heroin
When you could look in the mirror like, "There I am"
And still not see, what you've become
I know I'm guilty of it too but, not like them'' Lost One (2006)

Interesting...there's always some Hov to help me explain how I feel...hear that Jigga. lol.

When you see it in yourself I think it's easier to stop it. There's nothing wrong with popularity or the upward movement. Trust, I'm all about moving up and making moves and I don't plan to stop. I feel that I'm gonna ease up from the typical stuff, i.e. the mainstream audience. I think I've been around them more lately than I've ever been in life. I'm not tryna be there right now, because I feel like I don't have a lot to show for it. When I'm making moves AND caking (that means making money :-]) then I shall be mainstream with real things to show. For now, I'm gonna take a few steps back. Chill out with the crew. Not tryna be on some...

'I might've failed to mention that the shit was creative
But once the man got you well he altered the native
Told her if she got an energetic gimmick
That she could make money, and she did it like a dummy
Now I see her in commercials, she's universal
She used to only swing it with the inner-city circle
Now she be in the burbs lickin rock and dressin hip
And on some dumb sh*t, when she comes to the city' I Used to Love H.E.R. by Common Sense (1994)

Tryna get right. Starting today...

Until next time...I'm gonna go back to the basics...






:)